the days have been awful from being away from you. i feel like i'm no longer me when we are apart. it was so dumb of me to take you away from my schedule. i should have known better than to say no to taking a riding class. its dreadful going to the barn and knowing that we will not be together. i still have to clean stalls, but i don't get to enjoy you anymore. i've realized now that even when i didn't want to ride, it was nice being at the barn and there was always that familiar bond between us. now, i am lost without you! its only a matter of months till we can be together again. i hope you have not given up on me! i will be more dedicated to you than anything next semester. oh boy, have i learned my lesson to never quit you. i mean, what was i thinking anyway? taking you away from me like that. it won't happen again.
love, poor pathetic me.